Getting the courage to actually write what I want and feel and not care about what others my think of me is many years in the making. I have talked myself out of writing and sharing parts of my personal self for so long. I just said to myself forget it I’m starting and writing my blog and if no one likes it I don’t care but this is what I have wanted to do for a very long time and I know someone may like what I am saying and some may not.
So here it is…
This will not be your typical blog I may curse a little bit (well a lot that’s just me sorry in advance). I may say something that you may not like (I am tired of being a people pleaser all the time). I am going to write about whatever I want to and these are my words just as if I was talking to my best friend or someone I trust.
I will not sugar coat anything and I will always keep it real. I just don’t know any other way to be. So if you don’t like anything I mentioned then I suggest that you just STOP READING right now and go check out another blog that you may enjoy better. But you could pass on my blog info to someone that would benefit from reading some real shit from a real women.
The quote above is one of my most favorite quotes ever. I even have it tattooed on my back. When I seen that quote it made me think about how we are always trying to please others or becoming someone we truly are not. I remember when I was in high school and I wanted to fit in so bad and I would become whatever group of girls I was hanging out with. If they got in trouble I was right there. If they skip school I was right there with them. That was pretty much how I was my whole teenage life. Always wanting to fit in with the cool and popular kids.
As I grew up I went from being who I hung around; to being who ever I was dating at the time whom ever and whatever they wanted me to be. Never finding my own voice or my own personality. I was the perfect girlfriend, and then later the perfect wife and mother. It honestly wasn’t until years went by and one day I was out running errands and I ran into an old school mate and she said to me “Oh my it’s been forever how are you doing? So when did you get back in town”? Why would this be my light bulb moment you ask? Well because I lived in my town all my life and I had never moved out of town. I looked at her and thought to myself wow, you have got to wake up and get your life back.
At that moment I knew it was time to change some things in my life and start living for me and stop being the puppet that I had been for so many years. That’s that day I died and was reborn. So that quote is so true and I feel like that to this day. You either love me for who I am or you can keep it moving (Bye Felicia). I am so much happier ever since I made that decision. Is everyday great day HELL NO but I deal with it and roll with the punches and just take each day one day at a time.
I have not had the worst life and I know that there is someone out there whose life is much worst then mine has been. I have done everything in my power to try to live life that is great for me. I didn’t come from a family that was rich or well off and I can say we weren’t exactly poor but I know my mom worked her ass off to make sure my siblings and I had a roof over our head, food in our bellies, and clothes on our back.
Watching how hard my mom worked all my life seeing her so tired and the pain in her face trying to raise three kids all by herself was something that I knew I never wanted to do. Not trying to be funny but I knew I wanted to live a comfortable life with a lot of money (what kid didn’t have that big dream lol). I knew I had to focus and have the mindset towards making this life reality. I finished high school, had a kid, got married, had another kid, was a stay at home mom, got divorced, went to beauty school for cosmetology, went back to beauty school to be a cosmetology teacher, and found my true love for teaching and doing hair, dated here and there, got married again, my babies are now adults. That is my life in a nutshell.
So now fast forward to today I have been through a lot and there has been times that I just wanted to give up and then I would find a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel. I love sharing stuff that helped me through my darkness when I felt I there was no way out and things that helped keep me going when life was good but I just needed something to stay inspired and motivated. I don’t know who I will help or inspire through my blog post but I hope that reading the words on my blog will help someone that may be at the point I was and really needed a word or something to let me know that it is ok and to keep going.
So I say to you it is ok girl keep moving forward because you are closer then you think. Don’t give up now! Be who you are and don’t be afraid what no one thinks. You are beautiful, you are fabulous, you are fierce, you are sassy, you are smart, and there is no one else like you. Embrace all that you are and all that you will be and don’t look back.
“I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life’s a bitch. You’ve got to go out and kick ass.”
Passion. Purpose. Success